05/30/07 9:00 p.m.
Sorry about the lack of postings as of late. I am trying to figure out where in my day this blogging stuff fits the best. We are glad to be back into a somewhat "normal" routine if that is what you call it. It is absolute insanity to try and keep up with everything that needs to be done. I took Josh to therapy today and it was nice to do something that felt normal. We showed the baby to a bunch of the girls that we got to know quite well while Josh was staying at MFB. Josh was excited to show off his cute little boy.
Josh had a pretty good day today. He worked a lot on physical strengthening today while in therapy. Kristy has been really happy with how far Josh has come in his balance while sitting upright. He hangs his feet over the side of the mat table and works on sliding his buns across a "slide board". The slide board is a very smooth piece of wood that will hopefully one day allow him to transfer from chair to bed or chair to chair without the use of a lift. Right now, the PT's can help him do a board transfer but that is with Josh doing very little to assist. The PT's just know how to move him and are like Greek gods, they are so strong!
Yesterday was a bit of a harder day. Emotionally speaking, we are dealing with a lot and trying to figure out how to handle it in the best way possible. Josh was asking me if I thought he was okay with things and then said what if I just decide to not be okay with things. What does that look like? He said what if I just start being mean and bitter and getting mad at everyone, etc. Obviously this is not the option he is wanting to explore, he was just wondering what it entails. He asks such hard questions that I have absolutely no answers to and that are hard to hear. He needs to voice these frustrations and I know it is good for him to talk about these things, but it's hard for me to know what to say or how to comfort him. The only thing I can do is neal next to his wheelchair and lay my head in his neck. This does seem to make us both feel better.
Josh's little brother, Geoffrey, is staying with us this week. They have been talking music all week and watching and listening to videos and music. This is right up Josh's alley. They are going to see a movie in the next few minutes. Josh loves getting out at night like he used to before the accident. I also enjoy a little quiet at night before I turn in. Most nights consist of pretty hard work right up to bedtime so I'm looking forward to a little down time in the next few minutes.
Ephram has slept better the last 2 nights. I don't feel like such a walking zombie when he sleeps a little better- and for that I am thankful. Most feeding sessions are taking around an hour and then he is going back to sleep quickly after he is done. This is much easier than long sessions of awake time during the night. :-)
We have been getting a ton of help from different people and we are so thankful. People are bringing food, coming in to help with Noah and Zoe and taking them for an occasional weekend away. More than anything, we continue to hear about how people are praying for us continuously. Thank you to all of you who continue to do this and bring our needs before God. Please continue to pray for Josh's body and that his body is restored 100%. We still believe...
-Emotional stability for our family
-Financial stability as bills are starting to come in