3/14/07 8:30 p.m.
All together, it was a rough day for us. I just left the hospital to come home and put the kids to bed. Josh was very discouraged when I left and feeling like he just wants to give up. He was feeling pretty cynical today (can you really blame him?) kind of like he's just had enough. The doctors performed numerous tests today including a chest X-ray looking for pneumonia and an ultrasound looking for possible kidney stones. Nothing has been found as of yet. Lots of blood work has been done but only preliminary results are back. They feel pretty sure that this is not a urinary tract infection but something else. The question is what?
Days like today are the days where I have no clue what to say to him. He is so frustrated with how little he is able to do. He was trying to hold my hand before I left and ends up not being able to get his hand where he wants it to go. He feels like he is just incapable and the only thing he can do is push his wheelchair. Please pray for encouragement for Josh and wisdom for me to know what to do or say in these situations. We know that God is in control and that he has a plan for us, but the emotional turmoil it creates is extremely difficult.
We are very thankful that Josh's fever seems to have subsided some and that at least allows him to feel better. One of the concerns with Josh's health is that something is going on that he is unable to feel. That is why all the tests are being run. So the doctors have some answers and can then proceed with rescheduling the surgery. We are thankful that we have a God who is all-knowing, all-seeing, and all-understanding. We remember what he went through before and during his time on the cross. We know that what we bear is little in comparison to that. We also know that God understands our hurting hearts and is a comfort to us. Please continue to pray for us at this difficult juncture.
-TOTAL HEALING!!! We won't give up praying for this!
-encouragement during this difficult time
-wisdom in regards to many decisions being made in the near future